Sunday, March 18, 2018

To the Man Who is Brave Enough to Love Me and Will Never Give Up on Me

Let me start this by saying sorry.
I am sorry it won't be easy loving a girl like me. I am not the perfect girl you have always wanted. I have my flaws, I make mistakes, I have this bad habit of over thinking, I have fears, and insecurities.

I am sorry you have to be strong enough to handle me because I need someone who’s patient enough to understand why I am who I am today.
I am sorry because I know exactly that loving me will stress you out, make you angry, break your heart at times, test you, challenge you, and change you. 

I will be difficult with me more often than not. I have scars on my body and on my heart, I have mosters in my nightmares and aims.
I just hope you'd be able to accept them.
I hope you'll love me with all my imperfections.

There will be times I would think I am not good enough but please tell me I am more than enough for you.
There will be times I would doubt you or your love for me but all you need to do is reassure and show me, let me know I'm the one you really love.
There will also be times I would ignore you, your texts, your chat, calls or even block you but please do not give up.
I can be annoying at times, I can be difficult and stubborn at times but never get tired and never give up on me.
There are times I am crazy and nuts, and if that happens to me, please don't laugh at me and just help me. Please hug and kiss me on the forehead and it is enough for me.
Stick by my side and love me not just on good times but also during the hard times. I hope you will also fall in love with the suicidal-depressed-anxious-clingy-possessive girl in me. I hope you'll held all the pieces of my broken self and still call me beautiful.
Spoil me and I will spoil you more. Love me and I will love you deeper. I am not the best at being loved, but I am pretty amazing at loving.

Dear, You.
Thanks for being  my 2 a.m. person. Thank you for being so comforting. Thank you for always making efforts to make me smile.
Thank you for making me believe in love again. Thanks for making me stronger. You are the one who believe in my abilities.

I promise you that we will make it and we will grow stronger each and every day. I don't give up. I'll never give up. I can keep my promises so please keep yours also. And I can be sure of is you won't regret taking a chance on me. I promise.

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